|Self-reflection: Spiritual Error, Dryness, and Reconciliation
||[Mar. 28th, 2007|11:31 pm]
Tonight coming here I saw an empty DQ to-go box sitting in the parking lot. As I walked past it I heard my conscience telling me to pick it up, and felt a strong desire to do so. Nevertheless, my prides stepped in and told me that I didn't want to carry that all the way to the chapel, and that "not many people would actually do that, so why should you?" How can I, a mere human being with so much ignorance, be prideful enough to conciously and willfully ignore and disobey the voice inside me that I know to be God?
I am such a sinner, and only through the mercy of God and the repeated and almost constant use of the amazing Sacrament of confession have i been able to come as far as I have; as litle as that has been and as far as I still have to go.
Still, Despite my constant introspection and confession, I still seem to have hit a spiritual dryspell which has been with me for a while. It's different from a dark night, even kind of the opposite. It seems as if I can always feel his presence in my life ever so closely, and I even long for that presence, but its as if I can't obtain it. This may explain my recent lack of spiritual journaling. More later...